Yesterday was the first time I shared something on this blog in almost three weeks.
Ordinarily I’d quickly put up a bunch of back-dated content to fill out the illusion that I’m publishing something here every day. But that’s not the truth. That’s not me. At least right now it’s not.
I’ve got nothing. I don’t know how long this will last. I don’t know if I should leave this thing alone for an extended period of time. I used to think that forcing myself to write something every day, no matter how small, was worth it. That I would always be able to tap into that piece of creativity and when I needed fuller, more complete sentences, the process would take care of itself. But lately I haven’t cared about any of this, and that bothers me.
I don’t know if this makes me a poor diabetes advocate or someone worth listening to in the future, but I’m here in this moment telling whoever decides to read this that I don’t know what I’m doing.
I know I’ve tossed around the “I don’t know what I’m doing” line many times before, often in a playful manner. But right now I’m really lost. I don’t know what to do with all of this.
4 thoughts on “I’ve Got Nothing”
chris – I’ve been in that same boat for almost a year now. Ever since I found out my wife was pregnant I kinda stepped back from the blog. I’ve posted maybe 20 times in a year. It’s made me feel like I’ve lost my advocating ability, but you end up just doing it in different ways. You’re a man with many outlets, Twitter, Tumblr, Facebook, Podcast…an empty blog is not going to diminish your influence on this community.
I wouldn’t worry about it. You still know what you know, which is a lot. You still care about the same things. You’ve still got many of the same goals, I presume. The only thing changing is you don’t publish something every day. This space is just one part of the multi-faceted you. Yet the stone still shines.
To me, that’s the beauty of the blogosphere — it’s really, there whenever you need it. And unless it’s a professional gig or something like that, you shouldn’t be obligated to write anything at any point that doesn’t feel right for you.
It shouldn’t bother you. There is no obligation here to post something every day, every week, or every month. The reason this community works is because of its authenticity and of people writing what they feel. When content becomes forced or when it has an ulterior purpose, that shines through. You aren’t trying to sell us something and aren’t trying to convince us of anything — that’s how it should be. Keep it up.
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