Have you ever had one of those nights when you’ll do whatever it takes to get your blood glucose above 60 to the point that sleeping through most of the night at 250 mg/dL is more desireable than what you’re feeling in the moment?
I had one of those last night. 2 juice boxes and 9 glucose tabs later, I didn’t care what I woke up at, so long as I woke up.
For the most part, I feel like I have this diabetes thing under control. I know what needs to be done to get by, and do well. I have a generally positive attitude about this stuff most of the time. But every now and then base instincts take over and the need to simply get by is satisfactory.
In moments like that, diabetes sucks. Big time.
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2 thoughts on “Whatever It Takes”
I also don’t like seeing this, and do agree that more needs to be done — to just fix the “system” so to speak. But at the same time, I think we also need to look at just how and why someone feels this way. Maybe, we can look at it from the voting conundrum perspective: Every election cycle, people say they don’t know who’s running or what the issues are, despite the many months and weeks of coverage and online voter info available. And then they choose not to vote. You do have to admit that sometimes it’s a matter of someone taking the step to be empower themselves. I think it’s important to look at what HAS been done in the past 20 years, and continues every single day. People can and do find the courage, and see that it’s OK to talk about their diabetes. These positive, inspiring stories are being shared. Look at Ryan Reed deciding to continue racing, because of Charlie Kimball’s story; or Sierra Sandison’s decision to wear her pump after seeing Nicole Johnson do this. These things are making ripple effects, but despite all that good, we can’t force people to see these for what they are or use them as guidance in their own lives. I’m not sure there’s a solution to that.
You’re only human. And I’ve definitely been there before. For me, its more about the frustration taking over my common sense, particularly when its a hypo I’m not expecting and I feel I did everything right.