I feel like I’ve been documenting 24-hour graphs of my Dexcom receiver to remind myself that control is still something in my grasp, even if I rarely remember what it looks or feels like.

Is there something between diabetes burnout and diabetes apathy? I certainly care about all of this stuff, but I’m still missing that extra kick that normally associates itself with reasonably managed diabetes.

What I need to do is stop thinking that “this will pass” and proactively make it go away. But how?