Is it sad that when I try to think of what it is that defines me, I often come back to a line I read in a Superman comic?
“The measure of a man lies not in what he says but what he does.”
If that’s the case, then perhaps all of these words, these thoughts that I am trying to convey with some hint of a coherent thought process are all for nothing. Then again, maybe it’s therapeutic to engage in a bit of streaming consciousness from time to time to help clear some cobwebs. To get some things out in the open that I might otherwise hold back.
I’d like to believe that my actions define who I am and not arbitrary labels that you can stick on my forehead . And since I’m not particularly fond of cookie cutter labels when it comes to describing myself, maybe “keywords” might be a better phrase than “label”. That sounds kind of 2.0. I have plenty of those.
Type 1 Diabetic
If Google cared about me, you’d probably have the best luck finding me if you start with those phrases. Spoiler Alert – Google doesn’t care about me.
I think this thing will be a type of new years resolution for me. I like the internet. At times I think I’m witty enough for the blogosphere. And ultimately I think this will be a solid form of therapy. Suffice to say, I’m not much of a people person. It’s not that I don’t like people, although at times that is often the case. But I think that part of the issue is that I have not had many opportunities to truly share anything, with anyone. I realize that seems like a loaded statement. Maybe one day I’ll feel comfortable (read “safe”) enough to elaborate on what exactly I meant. But for the time being, I can stick to my comfort zones: video games, insulin, and hokie-anything. Here’s to hoping that there’s more to me than those three topics.
If I do commit to this, I will have to commit to not holding back. Obviously this wont occur on day one. And I’ll naturally have to use aliases where appropriate, after all, anonymity is synonymous with the internet, right? But If i am going to find some kind of internal nirvana, I need to draw a line in the sand, label it TMI and not be afraid to approach it. Or, if necessary, take my foot and obliterate it in the name of the greater good.
If the goal is to be able to measure myself in my actions, and not my words, then who knows…maybe all of these words will lead to action.