You know that thing that keeps you up at night? That thing that hides under your bed or in your closet? It might be hiding in a drawer or even under your pillow if you’re not careful. Of course I’m talking about Diabetes (mostly because I’m not creative enough to keep this elaborate lead-in going).
I still worry about going to sleep and waking up uber-low, or worse, not waking up at all. Teaming up with Hal Jordan has had a lot of great results. High blood glucoses (can you pluralize that?) do not loiter as long as they used to and when they do pop up I have been much more accurate with my corrections so ensure that I return to a happier range without overshooting my target. But I still don’t trust myself or this technology enough when it comes to sleeping.
I rarely feel comfortable or safe going to sleep with a #bgbed between 100-120. As my Lantus works to balance out my Dawn Phenomenon I fear that it will kick into overdrive – so I eat. Technically it’s just a small something before I go to bed, I’m not having Ben & Jerry’s or anything, but it’s something substantial enough to raise my blood glucose. And this throws the rest of the night off. I’ll get an alarm at 5am and see a slow creeping line approaching 200. I’ll correct and have to suffer through another hour or more of alarms as my blood glucose peaks and slowly rides back down.
This happens a bit too frequently for my liking. But I can’t get past the snack before bed until I get past the fear of sleep. And something tells me that will be an epic struggle.
Diabetes = Fear of Sleep. That makes total sense…ugh.